Well Raechele lost her glasses a month ago and so we ordered new ones. This took 2 weeks to get them and low and behold yesterday at school they lost them again. Now she only had them for 2 weeks and boy will I look like an idiot when I call to order another pair.
Because of Raechele's severe eye problems I just called to see if we could get her another appointment and they said not for 2 years. Well that means another year. I am trying to get a vision person into the classroom to see what extra help she will need and so far we are not getting to first base. The doctor who examined her failed to put her on the legally blind registry in NY so now we have to get another eye exam etc. I will pay for it but just wished it was done correctly the first time.
Tuesday, October 26, 2010
Monday, October 25, 2010
LORD PLease Help Me
I am totally wanting to just break down and cry. It is now 8am and Micah is sitting in the front room and not caring he has missed his bus. The Psychiatrist told me let him walk and be responsible for his own actions. It is now 2 minutes after 8 and he is still here looking for a sweat shirt. He has been up since 6:30 and now on purpose missed his bus. All his coats and sweat shirts are at school. Right where he has left them. He makes my life a living hell in the morning.
I hate adhd and abandonment disorder. He has now totally destroyed his 3rd set of beds this year. He is out the door but to where I do not know. If the bus has left he needs to walk to school. He does not like himself and the people who have hurt him so much he says nothing to just takes it out on me. His Dad grandparents took him all the time when he was little right up to when his dad married fatty patty mayonnaise according to Micah his grandparents did not want him after Aunt Anne had her babies and my mom he says only wants her boyfriends or girlfriend whichever it is at the time. I love Micah with all that is in me but it hurts to have to go through this day after day.
I am not rich and he destroys things then I am the one who has to put it back the way it should be. Dad calls and says he will come and of course he is a no show so Micah in pain lashes out at the house and his siblings. I just wish people would understand what they do to their kids when they act in this manner.
I pray each day that I will not only live but remain healthy physically and mentally to raise these kids. Where would they go if my life as it is will cease. Not one of the three youngest have Dad's that want them . Well Chaim's dad is deceased so he can not help that. We all know Michele could never raise them nor is she up to the challenge.
I would love to have a partner to love me help me with the house and the kids but this is very doubtful and no man wants to put up with this or can understand these kids and their needs. I get frustrated because i just can not keep up with all the work it takes to clean this house and with all the things that need to be done.
I need lots of prayers and just encouragement because this is a very difficult task I am undertaking.
I hate adhd and abandonment disorder. He has now totally destroyed his 3rd set of beds this year. He is out the door but to where I do not know. If the bus has left he needs to walk to school. He does not like himself and the people who have hurt him so much he says nothing to just takes it out on me. His Dad grandparents took him all the time when he was little right up to when his dad married fatty patty mayonnaise according to Micah his grandparents did not want him after Aunt Anne had her babies and my mom he says only wants her boyfriends or girlfriend whichever it is at the time. I love Micah with all that is in me but it hurts to have to go through this day after day.
I am not rich and he destroys things then I am the one who has to put it back the way it should be. Dad calls and says he will come and of course he is a no show so Micah in pain lashes out at the house and his siblings. I just wish people would understand what they do to their kids when they act in this manner.
I pray each day that I will not only live but remain healthy physically and mentally to raise these kids. Where would they go if my life as it is will cease. Not one of the three youngest have Dad's that want them . Well Chaim's dad is deceased so he can not help that. We all know Michele could never raise them nor is she up to the challenge.
I would love to have a partner to love me help me with the house and the kids but this is very doubtful and no man wants to put up with this or can understand these kids and their needs. I get frustrated because i just can not keep up with all the work it takes to clean this house and with all the things that need to be done.
I need lots of prayers and just encouragement because this is a very difficult task I am undertaking.
My day begins
MMy day begins usually around 5:00am. I do a load or two of laundry then it is time to get Raechele up for school and dressed. I next have Chaim to get up and try to get him motivated to get ready for school. Then it is 7:00 and time to wake Darius up so he can get out the door. Now it is time for Micah to be awaken. The first call. Meanwhile Raechele's bus has arrived And now it is medication time for Chaim and Micah. Now out the door for Chaim it is 7:20 and Darius has to head out. Now the fun begins because we still are trying to get Micah up and dressed. After an exhausting 25 minutes finally he is off to school.
Now time to clean up the house do the rest of the laundry. Decide to what to cook for supper that they will complain about and not eat.
Now time for all the back up help that come for the kids. If not off to doctor appointments. Wow it is 2:40 and Chaim is home. Now it is 3:05 Raechele and Darius are home. Ok now we will fight over the computer. Start throwing things around. Go out back to the mud hole and track up the house. Yeah now it is suppertime. Do not like this, not hungry do not want to eat. Then it is time for Micah to arrive from TASP and now the three boys fight and argue. Is it 7:30 yep time for Chaim to bathe and Raechele. 8:00 bedtime. for the two little ones.
Micah and chaim still not sleeping and it is now 10pm and I am exhausted and really frustrated. It is now mid nite and all are asleep and I can rest for 5 hours. This is my day.
I have no life because 24 hours a day I am watching kids 7 days a week. Kids with developmental problems are time consuming and no partner out there wants all this fun.
Now time to clean up the house do the rest of the laundry. Decide to what to cook for supper that they will complain about and not eat.
Now time for all the back up help that come for the kids. If not off to doctor appointments. Wow it is 2:40 and Chaim is home. Now it is 3:05 Raechele and Darius are home. Ok now we will fight over the computer. Start throwing things around. Go out back to the mud hole and track up the house. Yeah now it is suppertime. Do not like this, not hungry do not want to eat. Then it is time for Micah to arrive from TASP and now the three boys fight and argue. Is it 7:30 yep time for Chaim to bathe and Raechele. 8:00 bedtime. for the two little ones.
Micah and chaim still not sleeping and it is now 10pm and I am exhausted and really frustrated. It is now mid nite and all are asleep and I can rest for 5 hours. This is my day.
I have no life because 24 hours a day I am watching kids 7 days a week. Kids with developmental problems are time consuming and no partner out there wants all this fun.
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